Who knows the full story behind the death of Robin Williams? While the world speculates about suicide and depression, the only good to come out of such a terrible loss is the increased awareness of The Invisible Illness.
The chemical imbalance in the brain that leads people to give up on everything they should hold dear. You can’t point to it, you don’t come out in a rash or turn purple, which makes it so hard to treat. Depression tells you that nothing is worth it, and you believe it because that voice comes from within. It’s this fundamental misfire which holds so many people back from asking for help. Asking for help involves admitting you have a problem, and so the door of stigma opens: other people’s attitudes to mental health are the biggest barrier to care and healing.
Everyone needs some kind of support, depressed or not. But the most difficult thing to accept is that someone has decided they want to stop living – that the pain of living with The Invisible Illness has become unbearable. To find that someone might be unreachable and that the best thing for them is to let them go is almost impossible to comprehend.
To say that suicide is ‘selfish’ is to deny the presence of a corrosive condition that often erodes the self.
‘Tears of a clown’ is a strange cliche, but until the truth emerges, I want to remember the joy that Robin Williams brought me as a child watching Mork and Mindy after school. A legacy of happiness.
Categories: Design, Random, Vibe Monitor
Tags: 1970s, comedy, depression, Entertainment, Gay, mental health, Mork and Mindy, Robin Williams, seventies, suicide
This is the artwork for my latest remix, this time it’s Kate Bush and the Boogitron Bootleg version of An Architect’s Dream. Watch the video here and listen or download here.
Categories: Art, Design, Music, Random, Video
Tags: Aerial, An Architect's Dream, Boogitron, Kate Bush, Live Music, Mark Wallis, Paul Darnborough, remix, The Devious Corporation, tour
Now you can sing into your hairbrush when you get ready for the live shows coming up next month. This is how I get my studio tan – by remixing Kate Bush. A chance meeting of the minds lead to this jaunty little version of the sensual slow-burner from the wonderful Aerial album. You might know the track, but you’ve never heard it quite like this before.
Categories: Music, Random, Vibe Monitor, Video
Tags: Aerial, An Architect's Dream, Boogitron, Kate Bush, Live, Mark Wallis, remix, The Devious Corporation
Or how to make an oil painting in two minutes. Just film 3 weeks’ work and speed it up! Is it blasphemy or bondage? See more here.
Categories: Art, Random, Video
Tags: bondage, christianity, Gay, Homoerotic, jesus, Mark Wallis, Oil on Canvas, Oil Painting, painting, Religion
For the first time in 15 years, I’m painting again, exhibiting my work at the Sin In My Heart show in Manchester. Once upon a time, in Amsterdam, I had one of my oil paintings up in a sex shop. But as our curator, Paul Darling remarked, nobody goes to a sex shop to look at the art! When word went out that the theme of the new exhibition was sex, death, sin and religion, I put myself forward as a contributor. How could I not?
Announcing my new piece, oil on canvas 76x91cm, entitled X (the following is NSW) Continue reading
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Tags: artist, christianity, Gay, Homoerotic, jesus, Mark Wallis, Oil on Canvas, Oil Painting, painter, painting, Religion, The Vibes